kyaw& sher, I wna apologise. I knw now i may be v petty& irritating t you guys. hope i didnt spoil the both of yr moods today ): rly rly rly cnt help it. I really wna be happy but im feeling damn fuckedup inside i rly feel like slapping him. ( this is not another post tht i write when i'm impulsive, really. & thanks darron haha.)
Anyway. I knw tht the things happened today are perhaps rly very trivial t you all. But, i dont knw how to explain what i'm feeling. i really dont knw how ): You nvr fail to make me feel fuckedup EVERY SINGLE FUCKING TIME we're out. be it ignoring me, xialan-ing me, shouting at me, critising me, making feel lousy etc. there are wayyyy too many things for me to list them out. Perhaps if others did what you did today, i may just laugh it off w them, but not you. Thts why i think i rly rly detest you now. you're an entirely changed person. you used to be the one im so super close w, always encouraging me no matter what, accompanying me& all. recently, everytime we meet, we'll end up quarreling or daoing each other. I always hope things would get btr, but it nvr did. infact, it got worse. you're becoming childisher& childisher till i rly dont knw how to communicate w you. i feel like giving up.
its like a bomb waiting to explode.
i think i'm feeling this way cus everything's happening all at one time. him, & getting myself in another mess. making things super jialat now. i'm rly sorry):
left @ 8 cus i rly rly rly cnt stand it. (esp his face) on my way back, junwei called when i was feeling damn horrible. thanks ALOT. (lol sorry lah but i rly need to say thanks!) wanted t go home straight but jonwoi said he's on the way to tpy already! OMG i really very touched. & anny! he's alr walking t busstop t come t tpy just t have dinner(he didnt knw anything) :O im rly v v happy knw! hahah. & tht monkey's rly good. he said he dno what t do whn ppl cry, but he made me laugh in less than 1min o_o :)
went back home then saw the present bro, char& imp gave. IT'S REALLY VERY NICE. pictures next time :) played pool w the 3 of them agn & cheeredup ALOT hahaha! we lost & our forfeit is to dance the CHARMIAN DANCE. & they took video nabei hahahah.
anyway, i'm feeling a hell lot btr now :) thanks.
dont say sorry tht im always v sian whenever im w you all. its me lah actually. everytime when im sian i like make you all very sian ): but i cnt blame him cus i dislike him la. i dont knwwwwww. i feel tht i v duibuqi you now. IM A PETTY BITCH.
